b'BOOK OF MEMORY FOR HOLOCAUST MEMORIAL DAYLIVES WITHOUT CLOSURE STEPHEN FACTORT hisbookrecountsstoriesofthe severestsuffering,ofdeepest despairandofunimaginable courage. But one of the most haunting aspects of the Holocaust are the many stories, like my familys, that have no end. Loved ones who walked into the fires of the Shoah on an indeterminant day and at an indeterminant place. Stories with no closure.In 1965, my grandmother, Gertie Wagner neBerenholc,withmygrandfatherat her side, returned defiantly to her beloved Warsaw. It was the height of the Cold War and bleak Warsaw was very different to the vibrant, cultured city of her memories. She went in search of her parents graves and to try and find traces of the lives of her two brothers who stayed in Warsaw. She got none of it. Instead all she received was the disdain of the communist guardsMy great uncle Leon and his familywhosatallnightattheendofhotel corridors sneering at unwanted western visitorsandrattlingtheirdoorsinthe middle of the night. The noises that told you to go home.In April 2019, my sister and I retraced her stepsinaverydifferentWarsaw.Aswe stood in the Okopowa Jewish cemetery, in front of the reclaimed grave of her father MosheZalmanBerenholc,mygreat-grandfatherandnamesake,tearsrolled down my cheeks as I recited the memorial prayer. Tears of anger that she had missed thismoment,tearsofjoythatwehad achieved one of her wishes and tears of defiance that those who wished to destroy 15'